Big Boy & Lovely Weather

(Evan 12 days old)

(Evan 9 months)

I can't believe he is already 9 months old. He is so big now! He's a weird kid though. He likes to suck/chew on socks instead of a pacifier. He eats like a cow and sleeps forever. He makes the weirdest sounds I have ever heard--from high squeals to low growls. I don't know any other baby like him.

In 3 months he will be a year old. That is crazy. I can't believe so much time has passed. He is growing into a beautiful boy. Danny makes good looking kids :).

I often wonder what Evan will be like when he gets older. Will he be a quiet independent child or a energetic playful child that requires much attention? Will he be a troublemaker or a good boy? Will he play rough or be a cautious gentle child? I am so excited to see what he becomes and I know that no matter who he is I will love him and do anything I can to help him if he struggles with life, just like I would with any child.

It is nice out today. It was pretty nice out yesterday too. I hope that it is a sign of Spring coming and that it will only get nicer from now on. I'm so sick of the snow. I want to be able to go out and enjoy the weather instead of hibernating indoors. I can't wait to take the kids to the park, zoo, and other awesome places. I love Spring and Summer.

80frr gggggggggr jhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

(That was from Evan)

-Kimmy

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Pseudostrabismus

That is what the doctor said Evan has. And that means that he has nothing wrong with him at all. So NO surgery!! They still want him to go back in four months to dilate his eyes and check his vision (distance and such).

Today I have work all day. As soon as Danny comes home, I have to go in. Ew. This is going to suck royally. At least I have tomorrow off though!

I really love my husband. I mean, we have lots of little arguments, but what married couple doesn't? He is really a great man and a great father. Seriously though, I couldn't imagine myself with anyone else and I am so glad that we found each other. It was almost like fate. I am so happy that we have a little family too. I love being a step-mom and I love having my son. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I'm sure a lot of people (especially at Shaw's) think that my son was an accident or a mistake, or even that I intentionally got pregnant and then pressured Danny into marrying me. All of the above are not true. Danny and I fully planned on our son and our marriage together. There were no real surprises or misleading of each other. I think that is why we have a good relationship and why we love each other. The honesty is a relationship is so important and dishonesty is what really tears a relationship apart. I never lie to Danny about anything. He knows all of my thoughts, feelings, and intentions. I lay everything out on the table for him and I know he appreciates it, because he tells me all the time.

I think it is funny when people think that we wont last or that our child was the result of deceit. They don't know us and they couldn't imagine the love we have.

Envy is an ugly thing.

-Kimmy

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Defense.

I'm relatively excited that I have today off. The last place I want to be today is Shaw's. That place is ridiculous.

I'm going to take this chance right now to defend myself on the things I have said about Kristina. I never said anything along the lines of "I don't like her" or anything violent/mean. In fact, I stated several times that I love her. The reason I vent here about her actions/attitude is because I DO care about her and I want her to grow up to be a happy and well-adjusted child. She already has a difficult and uncommon situation (parents that were never really together, both dating/married to another person, and now two new half-siblings). Structure and stability is what she needs. I just want her to learn to follow rules and be polite. It isn't okay for a 4-year-old to yell at her parents. She needs structure so that she can be healthier. She is always sick and now she has a cavity. We need to step up and put a little more effort into helping her eat better and improve her daily routine with us (eating, sleeping, hygiene, etc.)

So if I didn't love this kid, why would I spend so much time and effort talking about her and how I want her to become a better person?

Tomorrow I have to take Evan to see an Opthamologist because his pediatrician thinks his left eye has a central strabismus (looks inward too much; cross eyed). I'm really nervous about taking him tomorrow because if there is a problem, he might have to have surgery in his eye. That scares the shit out of me. I don't know if I can handle anymore health problems with him. It's so sad.

-Kimmy

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Kristina & Evan

Apology

For anyone that read the post I wrote previously, please ignore what was written. I wasreally immature and mean in the things that I said. I shouldn't have written a blog when I was angry. I was just upset about the things going on with my step-daughter, husband, and the court case, but it doesn't give me the excuse to talk so badly about another person. I apologize to Billie Jean for saying the things I said about her (and her family). I was wrong and childish. I will also apologize when the next time I see Billie Jean.

-Kimmy

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